Is it more painful to try and fail or is it more painful to not try and not know what will happen if you do?

Supposing one day you find yourself on an island. This island is not that bad. You get your own life. There is food, there is shelter. The only problem is that you are all alone on this island(except that you still have internet connection where you can msn with your friends or do whatever you want with the internet connections =.=). There are no ways of transport out to the outside world. The only way to leave this place is from the top of the highest mountain on that island.

The special thing bout leaving this island is that, you have to jump off that mountain. But of coz, like in life, there is no 100% guarantee that you will survive and leave the island safely after jumping off. In fact, there is only a 5% chance. But what is guaranteed behind this 5% chance is that you will definitely have a better life, twice, or even thrice the happiness that you might be looking for. Will you risk your life for the 5% chance and die or get crippled in the end? Or would you stay on the island, not knowing what your life would be if you had taken the 5% chance?

Please tell me your opinions...

Seriously, where is this heading to?

I feel misunderstood.

Are you standing behind the fence looking at me too?

Does anyone really understand me?

Why do you not walk closer and ask me?

By looking through the trapped fence, can anyone really tell anything about me?

Its not that I resent the judgement.

Just that your judgement disappoints me.

Am I really that pathetic?

Do I look really look "bad" from such a far view?

Should I try to convince you?

Or should I just continue my walk alone.

How many times do I have to say that I am really misunderstood?

Is it coz no one believe me?

Or is it coz no one cares if I am or not?

I think I just trapped myself.

Maybe I should just stop pinning on hopes that I could ever escape that barrier, that trap.

Yeah just two more days and fate would choose a path for me.

Anyway...

1) Its not that I dont care bout my *****

Its just that I believe in being natural. Its not that I dont care bout my *****. Its just that I am dont believe in doing it for no reasons.

Thats why I said I hate doing things for a reason. Rmb? It makes me stop doing so much things I shld have done. And when I wanna start doing things without a reason, someone stopped me.

Peace at last.

Thats what stopped me.

2) Its not that I am not...*********

Its just that I dont have the reason to be *********. I wasnt even given a chance to be.

And how are you going to know if you never try before?

I seriously think there is some poor judgement over here.

3) Lastly, like I always said. Whatever I can joke with is not true.

I might look ********, but I am not.

I look like what I am coz I dont even wanna be close to being the opposite.

So you rather I am feeling down and out the whole day long?

Seriously...

Where is this heading to?

Sick of it!!

Why did I stop caring for something and end up caring for something else?

Cant all these just stop?

I am so so so so so so so so tired of these.

When they do, I dont. When I try, they dont. When they dont, I stop. When I stop, the others do. Shiatttttttttt............

Why do I always have to hate it to forget it?

Why do they have to repeat themselves again?

Do you ever went into someone's house and say hi, but leave without saying bye?

I so hate it when people leave without saying bye.

Do they all not realise they are being very annoying doing that?

Do they even care for the other people?

Lets take it that they needed time.

Lets assume 2 weeks.

That is like few more days long.

Thats my last straw I swear!

This time I am sure I am going vacio...

This is what I call balance of life...the good and the bad comes hand in hand...

This week is pretty screwed with monday starting up with a screwed up lab quiz. To think I screwed up my first quiz. Yet again! Urgh...Its only like wednesday midnight and so many things happened this wk. I feel so weird with a bit of mixed confused feelings and yet so relieved. I think I misunderstood a few things now and then. Good thing I was informed of my misunderstanding that I woke up from it straight. Whatever it is, I believe it is over and I can thus concentrate on my work!!! Thanks for tellin me onli til now u arse lol jkjk.

CNY is over soon and vday is coming soon. And I wish to tell a few people somethings. Yet I can express it out explicitly. Dont misunderstand again. This has nothing to do with me and my dates during vday. Just a few short reflections of the week:

To the people who think the world revolves around you: Seriously I think you are misunderstood bout me, but im not the same as you. I dun really feel at all that the world revolves around me. If I did make you feel so, I am so sorry. That was never part of my plan at all. Shld really get to understand me better and not deduce before you think you are right. I am crappy 95% of the time I know but it doesnt mean I am egoistic. What you see is really not what it is. View life with more depth. No hard feelings =)

To the people who are envying what others have and you do not have: Please dont be envious of others and try to make the others who are living a better life than you, have a bad day. If you think makin others sad to get ur own relative happiness, is happiness, I think you are very wrong. Firstly, if you cant be happier than the other guy, the problem probably lies with you. No point tryin to make things worse by makin the guy next to you feeling worse or sad. Its a new year. Please be nicer. Karma will come to you if you do shit =P

To the people who are still pondering and lost: I really can empathise with your situation. Hope you can take things easy with you and look on the brighter side of life. Friends are always there for you!! You know that ;)

To the people who are screwed up by work and so: Lets get it over and done with!! Hope as much as you are stressed by your work, we can still provide each other with a shoulder of warmth. Be it good friends or not, never deny a tired soul knockin on your door =)

To the ones that spurred me by being negative on me lol: Anyway got a few hard knocks here and there over the week. But in fact, that knocked me into a clearer mind. Giving me more aim and letting me know what I dont want( since sometimes its hard to gauge what you want). But im just like a ball with super elastic and thick skin. The more you kick me, the higher I fly. The more you hit me, the stronger I bounce. Thanks for "slapping" me on my face. indeed spurred me to feel the heat to be better again.

Anyway 明天再说的人是笨蛋.

Good luck everyone.